I want to shout in the middle of nowhere;

But I’d rather keep it inside.

I wanted to oust the pain inside me;

But I’d rather bury it in me.

Love is the turning point of everything;

But it simply destroys me.

Sense of belongingness is all I ever wanted;

But it was simply taken away from me.

Letting go is a simple word;

But it is the hardest thing to do.

Friendship is a threshold of strength;

But it is the hardest to establish.

I wanted to enjoy life despite the struggles;

But it slowly kills me.

I wanted to bring out the best in me;

But they simply underestimate me.

In the silence of my heart I wanted to be me,

But basically, I cannot be me.

Enah Pelomiano

08/14/09

11:43pm

THANKS FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

NOSTALGIA

Life is really unpredictable. It is like a wheel of a vehicle that turns upside down. You will never know when you’ll be on the top and on the bottom but one thing’s for sure, all of our lives circumstances are meant to happen because there’s always a lesson to learn one after the other.  

Sudden changes in life makes everyone feels pathetic while many of us were afraid of changes. But changes are the only constant thing in this world. No one could ever predict what’s meant and destined to happen later, tomorrow or in the future, only our Creator knows. In this moment in time, you’re awake and chatting with your friends joyfully but later on you’re already alone in facing the stress of the remaining times of the day. Tomorrow we don’t know if we’re still gonna see the wonders of our world, our loved ones, nor if we can still say or do the things that we wanted to do or to say.

We, people tend to disregard things and important people in our lives unconsciously because we know that no matter what happens they’ll always be around. But mind you, any time of the day we can loose anything because we are just a steward to look over these blessings in our lives and if we already loose it, exactly that’s the only time we would realize its worth, its value, and its importance in our lives.

Love, laugh, share, and enjoy life to the fullest as if there’s no more tomorrow. Do good things every moment in time so that you do not need to look back anymore and think what better things you have done for others. We must make our lives meaningful and purposeful by creating a change and influence into the lives of the people around us so that when the time comes that we’re called by the creator to join him in the paradise, we have prepared ourselves already.

Do not miss out any single moment in your life; fill it with so much love, forgiveness, happiness, faith and people whose life have changed because of your presence.

ENALYN S. PELOMIANO R.N

04 NOV 2008

02:22PM

A Little Princess that I used to Be…

I miss the kind of life that I had before….

When all the things that I wanted are being granted…

Gone are the days that when I wake up in the morning,

   … My favorite breakfast is served… with my favorite chocolate drink beside my favorite plate.

Gone are the days that somebody takes care of me whenever I’m sick,

   … With matching sleepless nights for my aunt just to look over me

Gone are the days that I used to laugh and scream so loud, as if there’s no more tomorrow.

Gone are the days of acting like a child… messing around the living room, watching super cartoons, making my favorite coloring book looks lively, kissing and hugging my aunt as if that’s the last day of my life..

Gone are the days that I almost slept all day in front of the television as I watch my favorite cartoon…

Gone are the days that I wake up so early just to tell her that I love her so much while she’s still asleep…

Gone are the days that I keep on texting from time to time just to remind her that I miss her and that I love her so much…

Gone are the days that I roam around the mall just to look for something that I could give to her… because I wanted to see her smile…

Gone are the days that she used to cook my favorite foods… just to see me eat the right meal…

Gone are the days that we used to stay in the room together just to watch our favorite movie while I lay on her lap all day…

Gone are the days that someone assures me that she’s just on my back whenever I feel down…

Gone are the days that someone hugs me and gives me a cheer… just to uplift my spirit

Gone are the days that somebody scolds me and later will discuss to me the reason why…

Gone are the days of surprises… the days of fun… the days I can say I’ve got the best moment in my life…

Gone are the days that I became a little princess in someone’s life…

God, I badly miss the woman in my life that makes me feel so really special…

I miss her smiles, her caring ways, and her hugging moments as she tells me that she loves me… I miss my TITA so much and how I wish she’s still at my side… taking good care of me as how she did when I was still a little princess in her life.

BITCHY PEOPLE OUT THERE…

It’s hard to trust people because you would never know who would betray you once you turned your back. Even your closest friend can be your worst enemy — and even that someone who you don’t expect to do it, will sometimes do. Wala akong pakielam kung walang sumangayon sa mga sasabihin ko because the things that I will be writing here but these are the things that I’m feeling even before but I prefer to shut my mouth off in order to prevent conflicts. I am not writing this to get other people’s sympathy at hindi din ako nanunumbat – for those people who are narrow-minded.. Don’t waste your time reading this and for those people who knows me deeply – thanks for all the understanding,

I’m tired not with my life, not with the works I have nor with my work itself rather I’m tired of the people around me. I’m not fond of playing dirty games and I am not raised by my parents nor guided by my “nanay nanayan’s” to live in competition because these people instilled in me the concept na wala akong ibang kakompetensya except for my own self. I do believe that people have their unique identities and we are capable of doing a lot of things — I just can’t understand why there are people who enjoys gaining popularity, praises, complements in the expense of other person’s hard work?!  People who always wants to be in the spot light, people who keeps on pretending that they been doing a lot of things but the truth is… they would just do their work when there’s a superior person around. I don’t mean to sound sarcastic but its true… and yet these people enjoy all the complements.

I’m a quite type of person; I know I am not that assertive like some people out there but I know I am assertive when the situation calls. I am not sociable and I don’t have the gift of being “ma-PR” in a lot of situations but I know when I speak I always say what’s in my heart not for the purpose na may masabi ka lang to make the person believe you. I am not perfect I also have my own weaknesses, I never deny that fact. I don’t like competing with my friends rather I am always happy for the achievements of my friends. I never claim for complements in expense of other person’s hard work. I never make people believe that I’m doing a lot of things khet wla naman.. toxic ako OO but I always make it a point that I will produce an output in the end.

What I have achieved now are the fruits of my hard work and determination. Nde ako nakiusap o nagpalakas o nanira ng sino man o nanloko ng tao just for the people to believe me. What you see is what you get. Nde rin ako plastic like other people dhel pag galit ako you would never expect me to talk to you nor smile – and that’s me. I don’t like to utter words that would hurt someone,,, though sometimes I know nakakapagsalita din ako out of anger. I easily give my trust pero pag nasira yun there’s no other means for you to have it again.

After all of these, I still have to deal with them in the real world, they’re just one of the few people who have that kind of attitude, but I still believe in KARM

SENTIMENTS

Sometimes,
it is hard to control your emotion especially when the person involve
on it is the person you loved the most. The mere fact that you love the
person so much, it is so painful to deal with the matter without any
tears falling in your eyes.

There
are certain situations that you are so afraid to know the truth behind
things because you don’t have enough courage to accept the truth… or
you don’t have enough strength to get over the pain.

It
is easy to tell yourself that “It’s over”, or pretend in front of other
people that everything’s just going fine, or simply make other people
believe that it’s nothing to you but behind those pretensions is a
crying heart.

Sometimes,
you have given everything for that person but you can’t help to ask
yourself this question “Where did I go wrong?” or “What else have I not
given?” and yet you couldn’t find the exact answer to ease the pain.

Trying
to convince yourself and believe in a certain reason that makes you
stupid is the main outlet for you to run out of what you really feel.
Despite of all the pain in your heart, you still continue to love the
person with all your heart, with all your life. “Stupid!” as what you
may call it but in reality, it is the truth.

We
get hurt and yet we still love, we are betrayed and yet we continue to
trust, and we feel disregarded to that very person whom your world
turns into and yet we still prefer to stay. What an irony! Even if we
are hurt, even if you cried for so long, even if nothing’s left for you
to stand up after the hurt…you will still have something to give for
that person when everything seemed to be dark in his/her own world.

After
all the storms in your life you will still find a reason to love that
person, be there in all the trying times of their lives, give them the
best that you can to make them feel loved but still in the end you will
be left with a bleeding heart, with a broken dreams and a shattered
life.

Until
the time that you would still want to give but there’s nothing more
left for you to give, that you would still want to love but you can’t
already afford to take another dose of pain in your heart. And when
you’re almost tired of everything and you’re at the edge of giving
up…he/she would tell you these words: “Pls. don’t give up on me!”

  By: Enalyn Pelomiano

 January  8, 2007

 4:45 pm

UNCERTAINTY

I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
and I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
and break away
out of the darkness and into the sun
but I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
and break away…

Nobody told me that I’d be in happy faces
trying to erase the traces
of what came before me
the girl that I used to see
is somewhere buried deep
she’s fallen asleep and I’m trying to wake her
set her free

Now is a never ending thing
one moment turns into another
before I’ve had time to run from all the other ones
and it’s so hard to live a dream
when everything that they want you to be
is anything but me

So much confusion
circling inside my head
what this one and that one said
it’s all an illusion coz I’m still the same person
no matter how fast I run
and I’m trying to hold on to where it is I’ve come from

Now is a never ending thing
one moment turns into another
before I’ve had time to run from all the other ones
and it’s so hard to live a dream
when everything that they want you to be
is anything but me..

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don’t see the one which has been opened for us. Don’t go for looks; they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Don’t count the years- - count the memories. Because no matter how painful things happened into your life…it will fall in their proper places in God’s perfect time! ILOVE HER SO MUCH….SHE’S BEEN A WORLD TO ME..SHE’S BEEN MY LIFE!!!

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